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那些年,我们一起追的女孩

2011-11-22T09:12:00.000-08:00

那些年,我们一起追的女孩

Nice movie, especially nice when you have someone in mind to think of.
It's just part and parcel of life? Knowing someone special, name as friend then lover and end up being .. not even a friend? Aren't young anymore either. I miss you though, my friend. it's been wonderful and interesting. And thanks to you, i made more friend and more special ones in my life (:
Alright, stop no more topic of her anymore haha.
Wonderful life i'm having now, nice people in my life, nice storyline and more to come. Smile and smile (:
It's the 23rd today.
Althought not working but i'm also busy at home okay. Still a maid :( But that's what i want ! Haha.

When are we going to party again? 2011 gonna end soon, in a blink. 2012 next year, hopefully it will be a better year (: Even if the world's gonna end but let's party till the end of the world !
Okay! So so so into 新环珠格格. Fml. (:

Everything happens for a reason. Every person met for a reason. Every single story starts and end for a reasons. IMISSYOU .

After a long long time

2011-10-13T11:10:00.000-07:00

Hi. I was looking thru this blog of mine and i suddenly forgot totally what my email was. So i tried and tried and finally i'm here! Its been almost 8 months since i last came in here. So Mmuch had happen this 8 months. So many happiness and so many sadness. And puzzle left unsolved.. Some were smiling and some were tearing. So much to blog about. Today, let me write out everything (:

Lets start with the recent one then, My birthday just passed and yes i had a very very happy party at powerhouse with love and friends. Thanks everyone that came (: and, thanks to xann for the beautiful roses. She know me the best. Thanks.
Hmmmm, i'm not working but i'm wanted to. Hahas. Oh anyway, just came back not long go from BKK with xann, joan and estella. The 4 of us. Doesn't seems smooth though, I took the "Motion Sickess Pill" from joan so ... misery came right after that small lil half pill. Had an allergy but went ahead and missed flight, so many tough road but in the end we finally reached. Allergy was kinda worst when we reached. High fever, swollen lips and hand. So went to the hospital there, had 2 injection then off to sleep. All i remembered was i was so so so lost and sleepy for the 5 days. But lucky xann was there( So much say but better left unsaid) Anyway thanks alot, so came back to singapore and went to Nuh. Stayed for 5 days, initially was so bad. Dyhydrated and stuff. But in the end, i was well again (: .

Celebrated xann's bday on sept. USS ! <3

Celebrated baby's bday with friend on july. Everything was perfect (:.
Actually nothing much. Life still goes on :D

I'm having a mixed feeling. But it was better left unsaid (: For me to know and for you to feel. I missed all those times with everyone that's one on my blog, really.. But i know all these moment are never going to come back to us anymore. So thats why we need to write it down everyday .. Arrrr, i'm lazy and i know haha.
She changed so much, so much that i couldn't even recognise the new her. I feel so different. The past and now. I shall stop (:
Anyway , here are some photos.

Shall tug in now. (:

happy new yr

2011-02-10T03:42:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year.

New year is so tiring but nice. Too bad it's ending soon. Sad. Haha. Happy occasion are alway short-termed. Some photos to share (:

night with girls

2011-01-14T10:54:00.000-08:00

Weekends are here ! Though it's none of my business BUT at least he can bring me out- to anywhere ! I'm alone tonight but i'm fine. Celine came to my place to pick up genie, toto and me to peizhen's home. So nice of her har ! Just went over and talk and watched tv. Nothing much but i loved spending my night with my baby girls, Toto and Genie. Then after that to Celine house to take honey's wedding invitation card ! (: So happy for her. Tomorrow she's gonna try out her wedding gown. It's gonna be beautiful :D !
Then home, update website. Ate maggi mee- so hungry . Gastric giving me a little problem jus now .And now, baby is jealous over some trival matter. Haha but i LOVES getting him into jealous mode. Because he will never show me or tell me . He's just too "okay" with stuffs. Haha . Yeah! I'm getting those waxing stuff next monday! I'm gonna get Gel's stuff too but that has to wait . "GEl,Gel... I'm coming SOON!" Hehe. Then i'm gonna take courses .
I wanna cut down on fats- but it seems a little or maybe too hard.
It's too hard indeed. How to ? I don't know ..

I'm gonna get Qipao for my new year this year. And i didn't know they also getting .. See we can read minds ! haha ..

PS: I really need to work hard. For US.

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2011-01-13T00:46:00.001-08:00

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Do you think thunder and lightning is exciting or scary?

2011-01-12T15:09:00.001-08:00

Scarier than monster. :(

Ask me anything

Life..

2011-01-12T12:35:00.000-08:00

Hello,i'm back.

I'm having a bad flu this afternoon when i woke up. And i'm feeling better now. I had my medicine just now but i can't sleep - I'm not feeling sleepy at all. Oh my goodness. What am i supposed to do now?
Life is a tragedy. Why? If you aren't born with golden spoon in your mouth then you gotta work your ass off your life. If you're born with lotsa money and the road of your entired life had been planned even when you aren't born then you have no fun in your entire whole freaking life- no motivation at all. So what's next?
Since we can't choose out life- of how we wants it to be. Then make the path ourselves, but how?I'm not sure about it too. And i need to make a plan as well. What i'm gonna do next? Work-no life. No work- no money. It's kinda boring. It's neither this nor that. But at the end of the day. We still chose to work instead.
I don't really like to plan my life, but i think i have to. Well, i'm doing free lancing at home but it doesn't seems to bring me anywhere. No income and i can't get more stuff and i can't do do any thing.I wanna go study, not because i wanna get a cert but because i need the skills. I need to improve.Because i need money. Well not really because of money. It's my passion and i love doing it. Somehow i don't feel what people feels like : Eeew, wash people leg. Ewww how to earn by washing people's leg. I just feel, i like it- So what? I don't find it disgusting at all. It's not that i like washing people's leg but it's just when you did something good, you'll feel that little smile in your heart. But of cause, overall we worked for money. But at least-I loved what i chose.

So.. I need money to study for more income to come. Where do i find money? Part times? How much can i earn? I'm really stuck here. Study first? Or concentrate on earning money now- like homed based how much can i earn? I'm so sick of staying at home. Yes i admit i'm lazy. But how. Awwww. like how?

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2011-01-10T01:44:00.001-08:00

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Pretty lady

2011-01-10T01:36:00.000-08:00

Weekends are not filled with events like in the past but somehow i'm already happy with all the things i am doing. Chilling with friend. Movies.. Oh well, talking about movie !! We went movie at Cine - SAW 3D and guess what? We went in at 9.10pm and we came out at 9.40pm. Cool yeah? I'm scared, not really scared just somehow feel scared about this kind of movie but i like. Haha. Baby and Bing Jie couldn't take it so we came out. Imagine one playing with Iphone all the while, one staring with no reaction or using the popcorns to cover his eye and one using jacket to cover all the way. How to watch?! But seriously it's too gross, like how can you watch man ?! Oh my goodness. But eventually, there's still quite a number of people watching the show. Human are sickos ! Agree, damn agree! Haha..

PS: What's PS? I remembered the movie PS:I Love You few years back during valentine's day. First ever show that everyone stood up and claps. CAuse it's nice and it's beautiful ..

Pretty Genie and old man ToTo

2011-01-10T01:22:00.000-08:00

These 2 little brought happiness to my life and i swear i'm gonna love them like there's only me in this world. Although they gave me trouble like, almost every single day. But they made me smile and laugh like every single minutes of my life. Learn to grow up by having a dog (:

They are my baby and they will always will be. (:

Out to play

2011-01-10T01:09:00.000-08:00

Time to update something on my blog. Photos first.
(:

Party time .

Great weekends

2011-01-02T08:23:00.000-08:00

Nice weekend i had. Counting down for new year with love at Pioneer Mall, Swensen, Movie, Shopping and
Fish&Co with BingJie and baby. Thanks for buying clothes for me! Love you deep deep la! Hahas.
Well, this is life. Doing things you like with the one you love. No more other thoughts- not at all. Don't let impossible stuff to affect your original mindset. Guess this is what i want for now. I don't wanna let anything disrupt my life anymore. Thinking about future, marriage and babies. But before doing all this, i gonna let go of other stuff inside my freaking head.

Marriage first or baby first? LOL. One thing about me, i can't let go of things easily. That's the reason why i wanna settle down, so i could only forcus on one, just one. Everyone that been thru my life with me is very important- and all of you are still inside my heart. (:
I miss all my friend suddenly. Cherish the one you love.
And my Manicure business- I NEED MY FRIEND'S HELP ! haha.

PS:Baby, i want you to get something for yourself because you strive so hard for everything but yet nothing to thanks yourself.I love that smile on your smile when you brought that watch though it's abit expensive but small amount of money can be earn back again. But that smile will always stay and will enver be back again. Love you for being silly honey. :D Thanks dear- Appreciated (:

Iloveyou-for who you are. Especially when you dig you freaking nose.

2011

2011-01-01T05:43:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!

Time flies.Soon it'll be 2012. Alien's coming, this coming that coming. Bascially - End of world ! Haha..

Well. Belive it or not?

CHOYA is nice ! Down with the freaking flu. But am feeling alot feeling alot better..

Im bored.

It's been so long- too long.

Hebe Tian Fu Zhen - Ji Mo Ji Mo Jiu Hao

2010-12-31T00:39:00.000-08:00

Day out

2010-12-28T12:01:00.000-08:00

My beautiful face plus my beautiful babies

2010-12-20T06:20:00.000-08:00

Free lancing on nails

2010-12-06T09:35:00.000-08:00

FREE-LANCE ON NAILS

I've decided to do free-lancing on nails. Things almost ready (: Just waiting for my flyers and namecard. I hope i will succeed in this. For this is the biggest decision i have ever made in my own life. Not very very experience but i will do my best for whatever i know and learn things while i go my way. Will be workingg part time at lot one nails salon too. Hope everything turns out well. I need to recoup my money spent and i need to earn money. It's hard work. And of cause it's my passion! So do SUPPORT !

All i ever need is a chance for me to show you guys how well i could do.

Thanks to Huibing and Peizhen for letting me play on their nails. Thanks (:

This is how much i appreciate and you guys also must appreciate my work !! Haha..

PS: Thanks baby so much, so much for supporting me. Moral support or financial wise- A big thank you to you love (:

Thanks my friend for your moral support and i need more of these guys!

These are design that i did.....

There will be more of cause..

life

2010-11-30T07:49:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling sick! Cough keeps following me like shadows! I quitted me job already, or maybe should i say i have already did long ago? No more motivation plus there's alot of unhappiness stuff there. So much to say so might as well don't say anything. Haha. Have been working too hard, that's why tired! =X

Have been thinking weather i should set up my own nails salon at home .. Should i? Well, it isn't a bad idea afterall!
Life have been good i guess. So all the best to everyone outside too! (:

PS: I miss the kids !! (:

babies

2010-11-23T06:06:00.000-08:00

TOTO AND GENIE

Underwater world

2010-11-23T05:35:00.000-08:00

UNDERWATER WORLD

This is my baby (:

21st birthday

2010-10-12T00:24:00.000-07:00

Huiting's 21st birthday blast ! (:

Birthday party held on sat 9th october . Thanks everyone who had made their effort to come down for my party . Thousands love <3 ! Hope everyone enjoyed themselves !

Million thanks to Peizhen, bernard, Dennis, Sharon, Weihan and all others ! Nevertheless my dearest baby (:

Thanks love for bringing another lil baby to my life on my birthday! Next time dont be so silly anymore . Appreciated! :D A million words that couldn't be said to everyone. Happiness filled my heart (:

Hereby wishing myself a happy 21st ! (:

I love you !

Thanks baby !

♥ times a billion !

New member in out family - Genie ! ♥

Too much unsaid words..

2010-09-25T04:14:00.000-07:00

Thought passes my mind. Difficult to tell, even more difficult to show. Somehow it feels the same once again. My dear, I know how you're feeling. I know you're upset over that someone but there's nothing I wanna say because I don't wanna comfort you. No Matter how much I say, it won't help. I just wanna be there for you thats all.maybe I won't help afterall but at least I tried my best. I never expect you to be happy bit at least smile for all of us
Or at least my effort. There's too much more to be said ...

"if u asking do I love you this much, baby I do"

Memories of Tok .

2010-09-10T23:21:00.000-07:00

Now it's true And we had to believe it. He's gone, forever. He's not gonna come back anymore. Not anymore. He left us without any explanation from
Him. Went to his funeral last night, I still can't believe he's inside the coffin. Tears drop, cried. What else to do when nothing could bring him back anymore.
Not even u god. Cause u took him away from us. What more to say? Bring him back to us can you? Return him back to
Us! We miss him badly.. A feeling that nominee could understand. Relationship breakup, quarreling with friend or anyone, it's different from this! He's dead!! Dead.. Not coming back anymore. :'(

Tok - I know you tried. But you never tried harde..watch how we all cried for you, talking to u but you aren't answering back. Look at your mum, how could u bear to leave her and everyone here? Come back.. Our promises to powerhouse is not fulfill yet my friend!! :'((

2010-09-08T08:48:00.000-07:00

After all I gave in, after all that I did all I got back was full of disappointment. You were the best boyfriend I ever had I swear. Buy afterall it still gonna end. My tear's still stoping for you, for that is you who always brought me smiles. I waited every single day every single night patiently for you. Everyday I woke with hopes, hoping that I could see you after my work. This is what's pulling me thru. From the first time I told u I love you untill now, I still mark to my words and I swear the feeling never fade, not even that one percent.
You ask me to wait for you and I did. You promise me stuff but all this promises only brought me disappoinent.. :'(

happy belated birthday

2010-09-06T06:34:00.000-07:00

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Xann's birthday

Happy Birthday. Birthday ended, everything's ended too (: Back to square one!! ((: Hmmm, anyway happy birthday..

Teacher's Day!!

2010-08-31T07:45:00.000-07:00

Happy Teacher's Day !

I missed schooling days! I missed all the fun we had those days. I miss the teachers i love! I miss dancing with my best friends the most. I really miss dancing but i know i can't do anything about it anyway.
Kids are so naive but they're so cute! Presents from them, cards from them. I never thought that i'll be receving all these but today i did. Now i know how my teachers felt when we told them we love them and when we gave them presents. Happy .. ((:
What about my little baby? He's doing fine. Because he has me!

Xann's birthday coming, what should i buy? 3rd year celebrating her birthday but this year is different. Hmmmmm...

Baby : Problems are right infront of us or maybe behind us. But we knew the problems. Let us just work harder for this relationship and get over this tide.. ((: It's been almost 8 months.. Lastly, i love you.

Movies

2010-08-22T09:47:00.000-07:00

HELLO !
it's been really really long since i updated up blog. Been really really busy and really shag out. Going to work, handling with those kids, spending time with my lil and big baby ..
Went for lot1 for movie yesterday - Expendables

Nice but not exactly that nice.. LOL.
Today went to for dinner at Fig & Olive and movie - Step up 3.

It's really very nice, awesome to be exact ! Haha ..

Love...

2010-08-13T19:49:00.001-07:00

The hardest thing for love is when your heart still loves the one that used to loved you..

No Title

2010-08-10T10:03:00.000-07:00

New fucking hair cut . Old school ~ Not nice at all :((

Iphone 3gs and Iphone 4 ! Cool right ..

Been having flu for days :(

PH

2010-08-05T10:45:00.000-07:00

Family meeting @ Ph ((: It's been long since al of us just come out and have fun !! So super nice to see all of them and nevertheless obviously we all had fun in the end except for someone .. LOL .

But that's out of Ph.

See your guys soon!!

My baby Toto just pee on my bed again. Cane and being punished (Locked-up!)

Miss him, do you?! Heh heh ! Haha ..

Genting

2010-08-02T06:50:00.000-07:00

Let the Photo do the talking (:

End of journey !!

((:

2010-08-02T02:19:00.000-07:00

I like what i am now. Simple life with family, him and the puppy. No complication with anyone ((: Happy go lucky. Wake up seeing both babies next to me. This is what i wanted. ((: Of cause everyone got their own issues and problems to deal and settle with. But it's better to keep one out of problems! Haha.

" Stop asking people to grow up when you ownself haven't even, because i guess i'm more mature then you now. At least i don't let my parent worry about me anymore! We're all still friends, so don't be kiddy to say "I don't treat you as friend anymore" When i go around caring for people. " Like whatever man ..

Genting photo to be upload soon !!

To Monsterpup - I love you ((:

Asshole's birthday @ ph

2010-07-27T13:54:00.000-07:00

Ndp , ph , JAY'S CONCERT

2010-07-27T04:12:00.000-07:00

JAY CHOU CONCERT 2010 ..

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NDP 2010

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JAY CHOU'S CONCERT 2010 ((:

Alright . Done with photos . I know it's messy but thats alright la .Took me about 3 hours to do all this . Ugh ... Haven really pack my stuff for Genting later at 9pm ! Next week end we had . Ndp on saturday , at night to PH for celebration for baby's birthday . Hope he enjoy himself !

Sunday to Jay Chou's Concert !!! How nice of my brother ! Thanks for the ticket .. How i miss the concert now haha . There's still videos to be upload. Have been trying to upload the vid . But i'll get it done soon !!

((:

Be back soon !

The Goals In life ..

2010-07-22T21:44:00.000-07:00

Anyone tell me anything about " Friends " ? Maybe it's because i've someone with strong feelings. I always thought that once a friend , forever a friend . But somehow i came to realize this logic, no matter how close people were " in the past " they will never be the same once they stop being that close . No matter how strong the bond is .. So , to all my friends "You guys are the one that keeps me going during hard times, so let all this continues because we won't know when exactly is the last day for all of us."

Because i don't wanna bring the "Regrets " forward to my on-coming life .
Well , stop all this emotional stuff ..

Am at Funan Mac using baby's Macbook . I'm so freaking tired Mr How . I wanna go to bed now now now . LOL . With you beside when i close my eye ((:
Went to MS with him yesterday for movie - Sorcerer's Apprentice.

Alright , he's super macho can . Ugh .. I like him ! Nice movie anyway .
Gonna get my ass to work later . Fuck the person who pin-point at me . Fuck the person who don't respect me for who i am . Fuck the person who abuse their authority . Fuck the person who use money to pull people down . Fuck the person who tarnish people'a name .

Saturday event - Baby's birthday ( Sorry honey, am currently unable to get you anything or give you a nice birthday party. But i promise i'll make it up to you soon. Maybe we'll just go for simple dinner alright? Hope you won't be upset over this. I love you . Tomorrow we'll go for the NDP thingy? And see how on sunday, maybe we can go to Jay's Concert. ((: Hopefully can . It's 3rd row from the front stage man ! Like omg omg omg omg omg ! )

Will be going to Genting with love, jason and his ... Friend? ahaha . Time flies ..
EXCITED are you ? ((: Something to look forward to ..

Let's work toward out goals !

What will be your goals then ?

(((::

2010-07-20T02:58:00.000-07:00

Hang out with the girls and Toto last saturday . ((:

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Went steamboat buffet with love at Suctec .

Awww~ Am gonna work at Bq later ..

Sick and tired . LOL . But still gonna work !

love?

2010-07-17T10:03:00.000-07:00

How i miss the feeling that we used to have . Why can't human stay the same? Why do people have to change?? How many thing bottoms up inside .. How many things can be said. Is it me ? Or is it him ? Or things just have to turn out this way ? :"(

Sometimes i just need a big hug and a few words. Words are important but it isn't unimportant . Why could thing be so sweet when you can't get it . But it doesn't seem the same when you got it ?
Isn't there such things as FOREVER ? How i wish it does exist ...

No doubt i still love you as much , maybe more then it used to be . But whenever i face him , thoughts and imagination came across my mind .

It takes 2 hands to clap . 2 person to fullfill their future ..
Is there really such things as future?

((:

2010-07-16T23:37:00.000-07:00

Its been long since i post something emotional . I won't if i'm not feeling this way . Maybe i don't trust him afterall . Like trust ? I used to have it . Or maybe because i understand his way of doing stuff . But it doesn't seems the way now already . I felt my heart freezing just now . Really it is .

If someone wanna lie , lie to the fullnest . Don't leave any loopholes. It's rather long since i felt like crying but i'm stopping it because this is the true heartpain . Blame me for being childish , blame me for being a baby , blame me for being sensitive , blame me for everything . But still i trusted my own feelings and six senses.

I hate the feeling of feeling frozen . Like you really can't feel anything . And you don't wanna feel anything . Be it a lie from you , of the wrong information from my feeling . It just suck feeling this way . I bet nobody wanna feel this way too .

I don't wanna see him . I don't wanna speak a word . I don't wanna shed a tear . I don't wanna feel anything for now ...
I just wanna be alone , just alone or just with toto . No one else ..

"Whats wrong with you again ?! " I hate this sentence . Can anyone face me without this sentence . Because i don't like it . It's not alway my wrong , my bad , my fault . I'm not like i'm used to be, i didn't throw temper for nothing . But i'm not throwing temper now.. Chill ((:

Cry ... After that everything will be good again baby girl .

like .... MACBOOK

2010-07-15T02:45:00.000-07:00

Toto'a photo ! That's my boy ! ((:

Just done with housework - Vacuum , mop , wash the toilet , prepare dinner , wash clothes etc ..

So tired . Haha but am feeling so clean ((: .

That's what girls should do heh ! LOL.

Last night went to ICA building . Then to Vivo to watch movie - Toy Story 3 .

Good movie . Really nice . Then to lot one for dinner and get his stuff done . His Macbook is ready to be taken home . Super haolian la ~ Lol .

Every single day - MACBOOK

Every single minute - MACBOOK

Every single second - MACBOOK

Even when he knew he got the Macbook already , still - MACBOOK !

Macbook ! Macbook ! Macbook !

I want Macbook AIR ! But me one !!!

Fuck you Fuck you .

See you later honey ((:

I WANT TO WATCH - THE BLOOD PLEDGE !

Movie

2010-07-12T01:29:00.000-07:00

Watch the Eclips . Nice but draggy ~

Despicable Me !

Its super nice ((: Super cute too !

Fucking "CHALLENGE SCARY MOVIE" advertisment made me have to pay 20buck . Fuck off la . its bullshit !!!

All about him

2010-07-08T09:16:00.000-07:00

This is my pup , his name is Toto. Stupid name i know but somehow he's called that name . He's 2month+ but now he's starting to learn to use his dick ! Like wtf? haha.

Nothing but trouble . But he just now pee and poo on the place we wants him too . ((:

He's cute that's all !!

((: You are the drugs

2010-06-27T06:54:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday Brother ! ((:

Went Ph yesterday . All of them were there ! Thanks to SARA that makes me so super high and jam ! Made me vomited like mad . Haha ! Like living in the world of myself and the imaginations !! haha ! ((:

Like fun only !

Have you ever tried being motionless and your friend just jump on the toilet bowl when they saw cockcroach ?! YES i did ! And my friends are .. Sara Madisyn & Sachi Miyazaki . And they were like huiting , you not scared ? Then i said yes but they never saved me !!! LOL . Good friend !! haha ((: Besties are like this ! LOL . _|_ haha

Next time i'll put cockcroah inside their SHIRTS ! Haha .

I'm at Jurong Safra playing lan ~ Like playing FB? !

I WANNA KILL MY FAT IDIOT BOSS !

I love all of you

2010-06-25T09:09:00.000-07:00

HELLO !

Hi babes and dudes ! Its been long since i wrote something here . Been working really hard ! Not with works but , with my freaking FAT boss ! He's getting on my nerves seriously ! Like fuck him hard if can ! Think the world lives for him _|_ haha ! Something about him : He's irritating , thinking money works for every single thing , he can't multi-task ! Haha . And he always go Huiting , i told you ........

Like Blah blah ~ Sing him the song Blah blah blah ! haha !

He know i'm kind of piss with him today ! And he's fat and disgusting but he thinks he's handsome and he is PERVERT !!

And he think he sing really nice song but infact it suck like a million ? LOL . Worst still , he sings every minutes !!! Like Awwwwww save me !!

Anyway , he want me to sign like 3 YEARS CONTRACT with him ? which i'm not gonna do so ! Its like digging my own grave can .. Lol . Haha . Overall , he sucks !

I wanna bring puppy home like ASAP ! Once i got the money i'll fetch you home soon !! I promise !

((:

Poor thing is , all my friend suddenly come up to me BUT not because they miss me . So bad , how bad can they be , how can they do this to me !ugh ! how sad ! hahahaahha ~ ((:

I'll bring him to you guys soon !! Who wanna sponsore him ?! haha

I'll treat him like lil baby !! ((:

What name should i give ?

Reccee OR Jake ?

My brother insist that i called it TOTO . Because that's the name for my pooh bear ! haa .

I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS !! (:

Love , you suck lar ~ LOL . Send you sweet messages you reply like what sia . Fuck you hard ! haha !!

Come come ~ Pom pom with me . So lonely to bath alone !! :x haha .

I want play the sims !!

IDIOT !! Fuck the Fat Ass for me can ! hahahah .. Love you ((:

See you tomorrow !

Gonna party tomorrow , ITS BEEN LONG SINCE WE GET DRUNK ! SO LET'S GET DRUNK AND HIT THE ROOF !!

I'll see you guys tomorrow ! (:

Night ,

Puppy puppy puppy

2010-06-20T06:35:00.000-07:00

WONDER HOW IT FEELS LIKE HAVING A PUP ? (: (:

Baby brought me to Pasir Ris Dog's farm to see dogs . So freaking cute alright ! Like omg , imagine going there and come back empty handed? Visit all the farm and seen quite a number of pups . Shih Tze , Pom , Maltese , Jap Spitz and some mini pups . But decided to have Shih Tze if going to get a pup . But its kind of beyong my budget . So went around . Some pups are really beautiful but ex . Some are not as beautiful but cheaper .. Actually i thought we were going to be empty handed ( Infact we didn't plan to get any that day ) Because , we decided to go for lunch after we visit the farm . Then i thought we were going home after that . anyway we went to st 12 to eat fish soup noodle ! Its been long since i ate that . How i miss the taste !! :))

He keep saying thing like , going back to the farm . So i thought he wanted to go back . ( He thought i wanna go back too ) LOL . So end up we went back to Dog's Hotel kennel 9 . And decided to ask for the price , anyway the Shih Tzu pup there are kinda beautiful too (: Didn't really place to much hopes as they're young and cute . But upon hearing the prices . Its kind of not too bad . Anyway its $780 .

He knows that i love them . And i bet he know i wanna get them i guess !! Haha (: So talked to the uncle and he said have to place deposit of 200 - 300 bucks . And have to wait for about 2 week before we can fetch the pup home . So that uncle took them out and we decided to choose the male one . But he wanted to get 2 pup ( cause they seems happy with companion ) . And he doesnt want to seperated them but .. If get 2 of them , finiancial wise will get a bit tight.

Anyway , he place deposited of $250 . paying the balance and getting the pup on july 3rd .

Because they're too young and have to get their 2nd vaccination before fetching them home .

Anyway !! I got a Shih Tzu pupp !! : D

And went to Sembawang to have dinner with mummy daddy and love . (:

But before that went to meet Xavier and bought him a cake (:

Happy birthday !!

I cleaned my room today !! Clean and clear ! For puppy !!!!!

(: :))))

Thanks baby !! Love you for being you ! <3

Female / Male

Cake and Carrot cake for xavier . LOL

THE A-TEAM

2010-06-18T10:31:00.000-07:00

THE A-TEAM !! (: Its super duper nice !!

Friends

2010-06-15T07:47:00.000-07:00

Nobody gonna understand my situation .
"We don't talk anymore. And you know what the saddest part is?We used to talk everyday."

Memories stay , but how long can we remember stuff ?
Friendship last , but how long can we stay the same ?
One thing thats not gonna change . Photos , it captures the precious moment (:
Tears drop when i thought of it . Once a friend , forever it is .
I treat all my friends with love . So one day , if they're gonna leave or one day thing aren't the same anymore . i know the feeling suck. This is what i'm feeling right now .
All i hope is the best for her and everyone else .. TC (:

" The most terrible thing is when you know , that person still stays in your heart even if its just a small part of it " I still think of you , i know . Sometimes i still do . (:
Who say memories is the most beautiful things on earth ? Well, it isn't . But somehow it is (:
Just hope that you do well in everything .
Everyone want the best for their friends . I think i'm real . Just that i believed people too easily .
So .. WELL , its all about friends .. What about myself?!(:

ITS TIME TO THINK ABOUT MYSELF ( saying is easy though .. )
I should . Enough of emotions ..

FRIENDS STAY INSIDE <3 FOREVER . BECAUSE I TREAT THEM WITH MY HEART AND LOVE THATS THE REASON WHY I TEARED..

sigh

2010-06-14T09:05:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wonder , When friends are like sister , they text and call you every seconds. But when everything 's over . Then they won't bothered about you anymore..

Imissher still.. <3sara

Macbook Air is so damn cool

2010-06-13T07:06:00.000-07:00

Awww ! MacBook AIR !

Went for Dinner at Riverview Hotel with Boss and colleague . One of the instructor's birthday (:

Then meet love to movie - Nightmare On Elm Street. So baby , did you dream of Freddy ?! Haha .

Anyway it's nice . Then to Marina Barrage for chilling . Then off to home !

Todoy to IMM for some shopping . That guy there is so so so into macbook now !

And he says:" jus nw i saw those imac n stuff n i love entertainment etc

so something like if next time we gt our own hse,if can put all those in a room

wouldn it be nice?"

Like so nice isn't it . LOL . Anyway .. I'm love Macbook Air ! Anyone gotta get me one on my birthday?!
LOL . And anyone know anything about Husky?! I want a doggy ~ (:
Awww , gonna work tmr .

Photos Of Universal

2010-06-09T09:19:00.000-07:00

Photos gonna tell the stories ! (: Let's get going babies !

End of story !! (:

Memories stay , forever ..

UNIVERSAL STUDIO

2010-06-08T10:42:00.000-07:00

Super Sweet right?

UNIVERSAL STUDIO !

Firstly first , how's job today at the dance studio ? Good , so far so good (: Well , it's job anyway . And this is how working life goes isn't it (: Back to normal life again . Waking up early , going to bed early .
Still needa some times to adapt ! I know i will . When i get my pay , i'll treat you guys for dinner or something . Allen for dinner . Sara for movies and supper !! okay ?!
And love for everything (: The things i promise . And yes i will ! :D

Secondly , Sunday night love and i plan to go to Sentosa for some tanning . Suddenly have the feeling of going to UNIVERSAL STUDIO . So see the weather forecast and yes , it shows thunder with shower . And well , it always shows that LOL . So went online to see the tickets avaliablity. And yes , not avaliable and how sucky it feels . Totally have the urged to go desperately !! So we decided to wake up early and set off before 7am . And reach there early to queue . So we slept at 3+ am and woke up at 6am .

Bath together then set off at 6.45 i think . And before that, thunder was so loud that it could wake all of us up . Face changed immediatly but that guy here ( beside me ) insist on going . So we made out way there in that sleepy yet excited face . Reach Vivo carpark at about 7+ . Went for breakfast at Mac . Then set off by taking cab . Reach there , nobody was there , brooth 's not open yet . Took photos . Then see see walk walk smoke smoke snap snap and saw one of the brooth is opened . Went to queue up and finally , we get out tickets ! So damn excited man !

Anyway it open at 10am . So we went to walk around .. Toilet to change then back and guess what . The crowd is scary like hell . queue like at the gate , waiting to get inside . Well , from what we see from outside , it's pretty amazing . So our turn " we're going to Universal studio !" We decided to turn left once inside . So bought drinks and its freaking expensive alright ! So went around , took photos .

First station to Magadascar to queue for that Merry-go-round . But decided not cause its quite lame actually . So we went to Far Far away to watch 4-D Shrek movie ! Damn cool (: After that to The Lost World. To play Rapis Adventure . Wet but not exactly wet . Supposed to be but we're lucky ! haha . Lost world is kind of disappointing actually. Then to foodcourt to have lunch , the pricing there kills ! And it seriously take suck alright . One fucking plate of chicken rice coat $9.80 ! And it really SUCKS ! Then Ancient Egypt.We went to queue for the rollar coaster Revenge Of The Mummy. ( It's full of people and long queue ! ) And it seems rather scary ! Alright , trust me ITS SCARY . I nearly died inside but i survive but anyw , it's fun . (: and i love the way he told me , he's here don't be afraid and yes i swear i do my love (: .

Watched the clock and we rush to The Waterworld to watch the death defying stunts . The Ang-mo's are fun people and some are super handsome ! Omg like yes OH MY GOD ! lala~ Trust me , it's damn it super nice . You see them acting like its real . And they's friendly and cool . Unlike singaporean actually . Haha .
Then off the played the the Enchanted airway . It's nice ! Cool ~ Saw that little Ginger Breadman lying drunk inside the ticket brooth ! Then starts to rain . And we had fun under the rain (: took photo under the rain .
Next -New York Street for Stage 28 . Next - Lights ! Camera ! Action ! Based on Steven Spielberg's classic epic adventures films. Next - Bought Beef Lasagne . Super nice . Watched street dancing . Next - Accelerator ( Super giddy due to some stupid fool doing something stupid ) lol . Then back to the Revenge Of The Mummys for second round of excitement ! Doing good this time (: Next back to the Lost World for Dino-soar . Next - Walk around (spending the last few minutes here , how sad ), finding stuff to spent that shopping vouchers away , bought a Betty Boob 's handphone chain. And he fucking didn't use it , WASTED la . 5 freaking $$ sia !

We headed out with a smiling yet sad face but still , nice memorable day we had together. Went to Hersey's to buy chocolate !
Hmm , What to say ?
When you're in there , it doesn't seems like your in this D*** Country . It just feel so freely . Like nobody cares nobody to bothered you with nonsenical stuff ! Well , but end of the day all you need is money and a good partner (: Like him ..
A great day (: Something you'll never regret spending money on . And a place you'll always remember . It's the before and after feeling . Look at the excited face (: It's something that i'll alway always remember . Thanks love .
Next plan - zoo , night safarie , bird park , redang , genting , sunway lagoon etc !!
(PHOTOS TO BE UPLOAD SOON)Interesting photos (:

Off to bed now and get my ass to work tomorrow . (:

Iloveyou baby ! Give me a kiss and get to bed now ! (:

:D

2010-06-06T02:58:00.000-07:00

Thought PH seems boring last night but still i love being with my loves one ! All my sweeties (:

ILOVEYOU !

And thanks love for coming over suddenly with that lok kor jeans . ~.~ haha .

Anyway Love you (:

A dream like every other girls . To love that prince like never ever . Shares their hopes and dreams and build it with their own hands. Let the love , the happiness stay. Forever and ever . It isn't just a word. But using it on their prince . Forever it'll stays .. <3you - Huiting

All i am

2010-06-05T03:11:00.000-07:00

I don't need good food , nice car or expensive jewelleries . Sometimes i just wanted to be treated like a little baby - Hug me when i cry . Coax me when i throw tantrums . Beause i'm that easy t deal with . And all that i ever ask for is something i could never get it so easily . Which is actually something so easy to do . Just a lil sweet talk will ease that stupid mood . Just a lil hug could calm me down ... That simple .

Happy birthday DAN ! (: May you grow older and older ! Haha .

I'm going PH later . No mood la SARA ! No mood la PEIZHEN ! Hahaha .

Just came back from movie at lot one - furry Vengence. Alright comment about it - SUPER LAME

THIS IS MY LOVE (:

TO PZ - i love you still man ! Anyhow say me ! hahaha

说了再见

2010-06-04T01:12:00.000-07:00

Went Jb for dinner yesterday (:

How're you? Suddenly you passed thru my mind when i heard Jay's song . What about the concert ? Are you still going ? If you're , enjoy yourself . Alright (: . I'll see you in my next life (: !
Take care ..

Road Trip (:

2010-06-02T02:48:00.000-07:00

Road Trip to Malacca and KL

With mummy daddy jonathan and grandpa .

Friday morning - ( He slept over at my place=) ) Took off at about 6plus . Jammed . Reach Malacca about 12plus if i remembered . Then to San Shu Gong , went to eat chicken rice . Then check in to hotel equatorium . Bath and relaxing in bathtub ! Like omg la ! Then went for shopping spree ! (:

Have bak ku tea for dinner and back to hotel .

Day 2 - (Miss him so much ! ) Had breakfast buffet and check out from hotel . Headed to KL . Went for shopping before checking in to The 5 Element hotel at Chinatown? Lousy hotel . LOL . Anyway , went for dinner then roam down the street and shop for stuff . Bought some stingray and sotong back to hotel for supper !

Day 3 - Breakfast buffet but seriously it suck to the core man ! And ya Menses came and it totally spoilt my mood ! So went home .. !

Nice roadtrip , perfect with just the few of us . Our fun our say ! So perfectly nice . It'll be more then perfect if that fellow came along (: . Sleep , eat and shop is our job that 3 days !

And yeah , i prefer it this way . Nobody else . Family day .

I love you all !

-----------------------------------------------

Was with this fellow these few days . Had a new "pet" to play with . haha . But he wanted t have a real one to play with . Am still looking around for it . Love you .

Sara - I hope you'll be fine alright . Like i said , anything just give me a call . And text me soon !

And it actually hurts to see you after im back in that way ! Awww , Remember to rub it with hard boiled egg . loves

PH TONIGHT?

(:

2010-05-27T05:05:00.000-07:00

Went PH last night with him,pz and jason.As usual ,saw a number of friends there . There wasn't really alot of liquor on our table but our dave end up being drunk . Haha . Because we end up sitting at his friend's table with vodka and champange .Not only 1 !
Am going to KL tomorrow morning . Ughh ! Am going to miss you so much !! Will you?
Anyway last night was fun though i'm not feeling that well and kinda tired actually .

Love , I love the way you held on to my hand . Thanks for letting me be there when you need me . you asked me this question last night . " Will anyone actually understand the pain you going thru now?" Yes , i do . Because i'm there to suffer and be with you . Let me be your eye when you can't see clearly . Let me be your lip when you can't speak properly . Let me be your hands when you can't control physically. Let me be your mind when you can't think emotionally . Let me be there (: And i'm there to guild you through the journey home . And trust me , i'll be here .

I swear i'm going to miss you . Make sure you keep your ass clean till i'm back ! If not i'm sure gonna get you and kill you !!! (: Have fun here in singapore !

Peizhen uh ! Stop crying because of him man ! (:
Sara Moi ! Hehe , enjoying now huh ?! Haha .

YOU TOLD ME I'M IMPORTANT TO YOU , DO YOU MEAN WHAT YOU SAID?

KNN

2010-05-25T07:29:00.000-07:00

Know what ? My memory card turn her back on me all of a sudden . It just dead off like this . without telling me :( Now , i lost all my photos and songs and my videos ! I"LL MAKE SURE I'LL CHOP IT INTO PIECES !!!!

DO you even have the guts?

2010-05-24T05:39:00.000-07:00

Been sick this 2 days . Brain's abit laggy now ~ Had a super nice sleep last night (:

Went to meet allen yesterday for lunch at Pizza Hut . Then to library . (:

Had a number of trouble these few days . His problem , friends problem ..

If you love me , then prove it to me by actions .
If not , just let us be seperated then . It's all this that's pushing me .

I love you though .

You told me to give me SOMEMORE time , which i had given you alot i guess .

WHAT YOU NEED WASN'T TIME

BUT GUTS !

Ugh . one more photo but cannotbe upload ! Knn.

the love

2010-05-22T01:16:00.000-07:00

Thank you for teaching me to be strong,
Thank you for being there when I need you the most,
Thank you for listening to my boring, non-stop talks,
Thank you for being my friend, my family, my motivator, my lover,
Thank you for the patience that you have been shown,
Thank you for the time that you have spent for me,
Thank you for the things that you give it to me, I keep it as my treasure,
Thank you for your kind and tenderness, it touch my heart,
Thank you for your attention that you shower me with,
Thank you for the sweet memories that we share together,
Thank you for your Love.
I love you. I do.

We have come this far together . It have to end someday . Because you know there's still a girl waiting for you at home . Baby , trust me , it hurts me more than a million when i say all this . But i have to .. Because someone have to make a move . Trust me for that i love you that much . ('':

Deep and Meaningless

2010-05-21T20:20:00.000-07:00

If i need you now , will you come?

Been long since i came in here . There's so much to say , so much to tell . About everyone in my life About him about her about all my friends and beloved .
Everyone changed well , including myself . Weather to bad or to good , it doesn't really matters afterall . Because my birth certificate will always be mine ! (:
Well , about my life ? Messed up ? Or rather should i say it's just not the same as i used to be . Clubbing life and etc . Sara , you don't have to feel bad about what's been going on with me . Because i chose it myself isn't it . I mean i don't regret doing all this at all . Why not , if i could really be happy for just that few hours?
(: I'll still be there if you need me .

Anyway , i watched that movie - The Last Song . How should i say about it ? It's actually really alright only . Not as expected . Met him out for his interview , so went for lunch at Funan 99 coffee shop . Memories are so beautiful , untill it's too clear for me not to push it away . Memories stayed (: Always . You know i'm saying about you , yes it's you . The off to do his stuff . And went home for a rest . After that to Mac , for chilling and have his work done. I knew something's not really right when he told me he wanted to go to my place to sleep . So he's meeting her later . Well , i'm not angry .

She's your girl . I'm a friend . Thats the different here ..

Silent means consent.

It's always so nice to have someone tracking you all the way then someone who don't even know there's this song in your blogger . Well , i'm not giving any shit anymore . If he wanna meet then we meet if not just do what we want , ourselves . Moving one step forward it's way too far easy but not when you have to step back. The most terrible thing is waiting but then again , there's nothing else to do other then waiting .

Everyone has their problem , i know you have yours but i have mine too . (:

I'm not thinking as much as i used to. Not talking so much either . Because if the line aren't clear enough , there's nothing we could talk about . Not even about myself .

If you weren't my drugs to keep my smiles going , then i'll have the the real one to keep it going . And i swear ,it's gonna be the real smiles of mine.

If you weren't going to keep this lady by your side forever , let the other cherish and love her . Because i know there's still someone out there who wanna see her smile every single second .

I can be there when you need me , but you can't be here when i need you? =(
POWERHOUSE TONIGHT LADIES?

Take it . It's yours.

PS: Wanna feel how it feels like knowing someone you loved actually don't think that you'r that important to them?

baby , i love you still.

2010-05-18T23:49:00.000-07:00

Been really really lethegic.
Shall upload his car's photo later or tomorrow .
Am still feeling dead . Update soon ~

DON'T WALK INTO MY LIFE IF YOU KNOW YOU'RE WALKING OUT SOMEDAY

LIFE

2010-05-13T23:25:00.000-07:00

I'm too sensitive for words i know . I categories myself under emotional.
Xann talked to me on the phone . First time , i felt how serious she was . And of cause i know your meaning .
I seriously see no meaning in my life this year. Maybe these few months . A job is all i needed for now . To do everything i can , to have everything i can , to go anywhere i can with money .
Blame it on my laziness ! Ugh , bad point i have .
Alright i'll serioulsy take up a job okay . Not for anyone , perhaps just for myself . Weather to earn money or spent time wisely or make new friends ..
To me , this period is for growing up . To learn more thing and see more peoples. So there's such person in the world .
I can still continue having this kind of life . i just needed get a job , be it part time ot full time .

Some things it's so hard to open my mouth and tell you . Be it a secret or lies . That's why i said , i don't feel myself . Memories been really bad . Can't remember what i did .
Someone told me , do you feel bad ? Yes i do . But the thought of the hurt i've been taking or taken . Maybe it's more then enough to cover all the hidden truth . Maybe its all an excuses or stupid reason . I know . But accept it , cause it's my explantion for myself .
As for my friends , like i said words and action is just a thin line in between . Actually i don't even know what i wanna say or explain . Trust me , i need a break in this country . Not that i'm having stress . I mean , yes i do but it's not that serious . But anyway , i just wanna get out of here for maybe awhile . I need to get some fresh air ! (:

That's why i said " Don't ever tell a lie , because it won't be just A lie at the end of the day.. "

SARA ! Please get your ass back to the bed now . Close your eye and rest your body !

let me be there

2010-05-13T04:27:00.000-07:00

A night without Ph again ! Nice feeling btw . Went to the Macdonald at Bukit Timah with him . The first place we went to that first time. Ate Cheese burger ! Like wow , so nice la ! Then went rounding .. Cause west side people are so boring . LOL . Went to a number of places , seems like going to hunt for ghost . But end up somewhere peaceful and chill down there . (:

Seriously , for these 20 years . I have never been in a relationship with someone like him . As in , handling with important stuff and money issue . It's not a bad thing too , cause i know i'm learning to grow even more . To see the world from him . It's not all about love . It's not love we had . There's politics and stuff .
Love, I'm here for you to talk to . I'm here to listen to you . Don't be afriad to tell me anything . Anything.
I won't even look down on you . Infact , i'll be there to cheer you up if you don't mind . Trust me . We'll go thru all this together . Although , i might not be of any helps but just let me be there . =)

I KNOW YOU FEEL STRESS AND SUCKY NOW . IMAGINE THE PERSON YOU HATE AND HIT ON THE PILLOW ! HAHA.

If one day i lost my memories

2010-05-10T15:47:00.000-07:00

Well , thanks to xann 's messages that woke me up and fucking made me so awake now. I'm damn tired and exhausted yesterday night . It seems really long that i feel this way . Anywhere , you can fall asleep anywhere . Alright shall update what's happening ....

Saturday - A night without spending at ph . Went rounding and hunting for food and nice place to chill out with him. *Thinking in process .. * Met him in the afternoon then went to PS for movie - A back-up plan.
Really nice show (: Went shopping . Saw one really nice Hello Kitty watch . Have you met a guy this way .... He told you he needs the toilet so we went . He insist that i go too , so i went . When i'm out , he just look elsewhere and pass you a plastic bag with something inside . I was mad la , cause i don't even want him to waste money . But a part of me feel so delighted , happy - the word to be used . I smiled of cause , he's not romantic . I don't need someone romantic , i just need someone who can make me smile . Well , after movie , we went rounding . LOL cause we had nowhere to go . So we went for bak kut teh at saltun. Been really long since i went there.
So we went to sentosa after supper . Walking on the beach at Sentosa at night is something i always love to do (: Sat down and shut the eyes and listen to the sea . Peace - Is what you'll feel at that moment( especially with someone you love) . Quiet - Is what i wanted (Just with someone you trust) . After that, went back to the usual place for some rest . Don't know why but the both of us just slept like nobody business , too tired for anything .
Next morning went back home for mother's day breakfast (:
" You're the first person who really slept inside my car " Then remember me for i'm the first .

I seems busy , yet i don't know what i'm busy with but i'm just not free .
Last night , he got an accident . Luckily nothing happen except that the car need some operation. Accompany him to the car garage and left his wifey there for some minor opt. But with a sum of money . LOL. Then took train to Vivo , walk around and sat down somewhere . I feel really good sitting there doing nothing , thinking of nothing and without any words . It's a great feeling.
I've been feeling so stone for the whole day . Mood swing . No appetite. But feel so much better after some fresh air . Went home after that , slept untill she msg me ! Tired out man .

What's with caring for somebody else who doesn't appreciate. For friends or for anyone else . Hmmm ?
I'm glad i'm here and there for you , to see you breaking down and cry infront of me . Put aside anything that makes you this way . But i see how you cared for everyone. It's not about how long you know that somebody but it's about how much you understand that somebody . It's not about trust but the bond and the feeling . Be it that weather in future we'll kill each other with a knife or we used to hate each other for some reasons . I chose to be there when you need someone . That's the least i could do anyway . Know what you're doing , know your limit for everything . Leave some space for yourself . You needed some fresh air .
I'm just a phone call away if you need me . You can tell me " Fuck care this , fuck care that .. " But i know how sucky it feels deep inside . you don't have to be strong when you look me in the eye cause i feel the weakness in you . You're weak . Sara , one thing i have to say . I'm glad that i'm there when you're at the lowest point . Stay positive .

It's the footprint we left there , it's the path we've walk together before .

before one day i forget the feeling , bring me back to look for it again .

Because i'm alway the one who watched you walking away ..

What's best when it can't be the best anymore? If having to be in a state of clear mind and to be troubled . Then i'll rather be in half consious. Or maybe , just nothing .

If you were those drugs , i'll chose to have it everyday and keep myself addicted even if at the end of the day , it'll bring harm to me..

Sometimes i wonder , why ?

Why is there unhappiness . Are we born to solves problem ? Then why are we even born.

The point here is , because unhappiness might lead to happiness .

Feelings don't last , if it's not being maintance well .

I could love you like it's the end of the world now . but if one day , i'm too tired to hold on to you anymore or if i collapse one day . Live your life to the fullest . Because i know , you have your dreams you have your love and you have your future .

Look for girls who calls you their love. Look for girls who tears without any reason but just by looking in your eye . Look for girls who'll wait patiently . Look for girls whose willingly to do anything beyond the expectation .

And girls , who'll want to have your baby without asking you to be responsible for that.

If one day , you gonna leave again . Leave me with a baby of yours , so i could keep the love forever .

My love for you is like the batteries , and you're the charger .

BUT If one day , it goes flat and it couldn't be charge anymore, keep it aside .

Alright, I find myself naggy .

Night , to all that i love .

Lastly , never tell a lies because it'll never be just one lies .

I'm sorry if i lied .

2010-05-09T10:54:00.001-07:00

I JUST FEEL SO SUCK NOW.

You're my drugs

2010-05-07T08:55:00.000-07:00

Somehow , i still love the feeling when the mind isn't working . So you'll do thing physically not mentally .

Logical thinking

2010-05-06T14:09:00.000-07:00

Treat your girl right , or someone else will ..

Party time

2010-05-06T05:56:00.000-07:00

ITS MY PARTY , MY DAY AND MY CALL !

Well , IT'S LADIES NIGHT again yesterday . Slept at 8am and woke up at 11am yesterday morning then went to work with peizhen . Alright , not exactly working . End work and went home at about 7.30pm . Bath , prepared and changed then went downstair to meet love . Then to fetch peizhen to PH .

Don't have to queue for ladies drink , thanks to David . Save our time ! haha . Then brother and gang came . Kinda lots of things happened last night actually . Its our "Family" problem ! LOL . Didn't really drink actually , but at first was kind of tipsy . But end up have to run here and there to take care of this take care of that . So damn piss off last night . Went out and saw love so towards the end , we both just sat there and talk. He's running a fever and i knnow how bad it feels . So i stayed there with him . I can't be bothered with he people inside too . LOL . Better not to see and know too much . Haha . So close both eye ! I saw tears in his eye , i felt something wasn't right but i guess it isn't time to ask about anything too (:

Here comes the end of the night , same song to end the day - Bad Romance . But we are not inside but at the smoking area . Well , i'm happy so anywhere also can dance ! Then went to pick up the car and head back home . Something happen on the way but like i said , it's family problem ! Haha .
Send pz home then both of us went home together (: He slept when i went for bathe , so i just help him get towels and water . And unbutton his shirt for him !!! LOL
Oh ya ! Everyone including me and pz wore SHIRT last night ! Like so coincidence(: Wanted to take family photo ! But end up alot of problem .. But still the night ends well =)

PS: Let me be there when you're sick,so i could take care of you. Let me watch you when you fall alseep,so i could be there when you got shocked by your dreams and get you back to dreamland again .Let me be there to stay with you when you're alone so you won't be alone . Let me be there when you're tipsy so i could hold you back when you falls . Whatever it is , i'm fine i guess .
When one day , you have to leave again or when you don't need me anymore . Tell me .. I'm still the same , just let me be there for you for the moment . Maybe one day , you'll suddenly tell me . You're getting married , i really don't know what to do but , i'll try my best to ....
Love , i senses something thru your eye . though i don't know what's happening but those photo we took together , i see happiness in both eye (:

Loving him doesn't mean to have him , but to see the smiles on his face once more ..

The genuine smile =)

BORED BORED BORED

2010-05-04T06:57:00.000-07:00

Last night went out with pz and wl for supper at geylang 126 . And some others . Then went back to pz's there for some chilling out (: Went home in the morning about 7 and slept at 9 . because by then , then manage to fall sleep .

Have a safe trip Nic .

IM BORED !

BORED

2010-05-03T05:12:00.000-07:00

I'M SO BORED .

Bring me out anyone ?! awwwww, bored to death .
I WANT TO FUCK HIM UPSIDE DOWN !!!!!!

2010-05-02T11:35:00.000-07:00

I FEEL LIKE SETTLING DOWN SOON , love .

What if one day , i turn my head and walk away alone . Would be you infront when i lift up my head?
I miss him . How can i ever let you know , how much i really do.

The day at PH

2010-05-02T06:35:00.000-07:00

Loved Of The Photos . Love you Too x.x (:

I felt like a princess last night . With someone to protect when in trouble . Someone to loved and cool you down. Headed to PH with peizhen , dave and jason . Drank some Martini which i bought from home . Looked at their expression and you'll know how funny it is . LOL . So met das and the gangs inside .
Jian Rong's birthday as well , so went to their table and sat , played games and drink with the girls . Been rather long since we gather (: Nice feeling out of it .

Something happened halfway thru . I'm just wondering , if that someone says she misses you , she likes you but yet she pull and push you around in the club . Is it how it's supposed to be? Anyway , i just need time away from her i guess .

After the incident, we went back to the table . Dance and played around .
End of it , the 2 of us went 81 for rest again that morning . Again , we listened to the radio and fell sleep together . I watched him fell sleep . Tears dropped down my cheek. It's the tears of joy. But partly , how much i wanted to tell you that moment . Are you gonna leave anytime now ? Woke up at 11am , went home . so sleepy but i had a great day . Really . And i love the feeling whereby , nobody cares , nobody bothers , nobody interrupt at all ! (:
Last friday and saturday is the day which i'll look forward to . And i really do . Because i know , when the time is there , i could see him soon ..

Sometime , i really wish that i don't actually think too much .
Sometime , i just wish that you could just stay ..
And say , that you'll never leave me ever again .

LOOK AT THE MONEY BEHIND(Jason)

Well , Ugly side of people ! :X

Tell me , are they GAYS?

But i know , it will never come true ..

But i still love you , nevertheless .

The love

2010-05-01T04:10:00.000-07:00

I woke up early yeaterday morning . Went out with him the whole day . First destination is the car garage but end up didn't did anything . So we went to Cine for movies and lunch . He bought a ticket at .45pm - Iron Man2 and 7.15pm - Bounty hunter . Before that we went for lunch at Fish&Co . At first wanted to go for Sushi or either Billy Bomber . He just can't make up his mind . So end up we went for Fish&CO . Chat about anything , anything that can make us laugh . And end up trying the clams which both of us didn't even eat before . Alright , it's fucking sucky ! Never never eat that again .

After lunch then headed back to Cine for Iron Man2 . Nice movie though it's abit rush at the back . Ended at about 5 . Then went to Taka , that big guy bought TWO Iron Man lego toys . Then went to buy ice-cream (:
And back to movie - Bounty Hunter . Ended at 9 . Well , i prefer this movie ! (: Then meet peizhen and desmond , went to MindCafe for board games . Awww , it's so nice there . But stupid people please don't go there cause you'll feel more stupid . =.=|z

After everything , they went for their movies then we both decided to go to 81 for some rest . And guess what , we over-slept untill 8.30am . Like Wtf ? Went home half conscious . Lied dead on my bed when i'm home .

~~CANCELLATION OF SENTOSA~~ How sad .

Everything seem so beautiful yesterday . It's been long since i slept on your arms and over the night . Everything seems so just right even when things went wrong . I feel so nice when you're beside me . Even with nothing , just some soft music and it just shut our mind and ear off the world . With just you and me , everything 's just so sweet . But somehow it feels like it's going to be the end of the world soon . Because everything's too beautiful . If you asked me , am i afriad . Yes i am . But it doesn't matter too . End of the day , it's the smiles that stay deep in our heart . Like this song in this blog , CLOSE TO YOU.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥What greater thing is there for two human souls than to feel that they are joined... to strengthen each other... to be at one with each other in silent unspeakable memories.♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I STILL LOVE YOU THE SAME OR EVEN MORE THAN I USED TO =)

He gave me this . And it look super " Cute" la

lalala ~

2010-04-29T07:02:00.000-07:00

Went to distribute flyers with this dearest at town at xann's outlet . Alright , hard money . It's fucking hard money . But i enjoyed the day la .. Dont't you?! AHaaha . Talk and play around . okay what . But it's really hard earn money . Then we both went to buy shoes . (:

Then home to change and off to PH . Fucking drunk . So don't ask me what happened yesterday .

I know i'm happy (: Cause i'm not on the right mind . LOL .

Something bad must have happen , so i'm sorry for everything if there is .

Daddy asked if i want a dog , it's a wild dog?! LOL . But i think it's damn cute ...

Awwwww.

PS: Songs tell how a person is feeling .

2010-04-27T10:41:00.000-07:00

If a guy gave you a refridgerator as a gift , what will your reaction be?
You opened it and If the refridgerator is filled with flowers, what will your reaction be then ?
I think it's so sweet .
Do you even know what kind of flowers do i like?
Someone said "Don't love a person too much , it's scary ."
But if you love him untill a point whereby you can't stop loving him , it's more scarier that way .
What if one day the guy told the girl that they can't be together anymore and the guy had to leave once and for all .
What's gonna happen?
So what if one day the girl had no more patiences , time and energy to wait for the guy's answer anymore .
What's gonna happen next ?

To be continued ....

(:

2010-04-27T09:37:00.000-07:00

A night with my precious . Pz and pris came over last night . Before that went for a supper with him . Like super short supper . So , we girls just chit chat and play around . watch funny videos and stuff . LOL . Like mad la . Ate mcup noodles and complain about my CUP NOODLES . And hello , i'm super good la . i slept on the floor with just one blanket and pillow . Like wtf ? So super duper good right. I think so too . Over slept and woke up this afternoon LOL .
Went out to town to meet xann for movie - Kick Ass and dinner . Met Sachi and ash too . Tomorrow i'm gonna work ! And go for party ! Like me and that peizhen ! LOL . Damn lonely . So what is FTW?
Tomorrow you gonna go PH? So tomorrow we'll be going as friends isn't it? Hmmm . wonder how it's going to be like .

PS: Even if you're not thinking of me , i'll alway be .

Webcam with these idiots . Some are so obsence la . Alright , it's damn it ugly =.=

But who cares ! haha. Just For Laugh !

(:

2010-04-25T12:28:00.000-07:00

Hi , Good to see myself normal again . So nice to have craving for food and sleep again .
But i hate it when i have craving .I ate too much ! Awwww. But it's somehow so nice to face my friend with the normal self .
I don't want them to see me down too . And when something isn't right ..

That day when i came home from meeting him , i had a sleep then i woke up feeling so hungry . After so long , it feels so great to have food inside my stomach . Then met allen for a talk . And when back to sleep again . Slept for kinda long . Then woke up and went to TW park for chee yau's birthday celebration. So nice to see my friends again. Peizhen wanted to go club so all of sudden we went to PH again LOL .
Chit chat with the girl - I love the way we 're now . (:

Was like Fucking drunk . Saw xann and gang . Something bad happen at first but , she was there when i'm down , drunnk. Thanks . Really , it's not that i don't appreciate what you did but i hope you understand that i really can't give you anything back in returns. And i don't know what to give you too . But i can be there when you'rre down too . Woke up at 5plus today . Went out with Agnes , tea , cy and allen . Went for dinner then for MJ . Talk and talk and talk . I like the way i am now . (: Then went to return car to joel with Allen . Smooth journey ! Haaa . Thanks Allen , he's the safest person you can put me with even in a room with just the both of us (:

Then i realise , actually the place that i went to is the place you brought to the first time we met . The petrol station there , you remember? We've nowhere to go so you drove there and keep thinking where to bring me to. Loads of stuff went thru my mind when i saw the place . It's too much to be said so everything 's just kept inside . To keep it safe . All these days i have been thru , it's nightmare . I don't know how much it might affect you, i really don't know how much it might hurts you . I wish i had known . But when i see the tears running in your eye , it hurts me a million times . To know that it actually breaks your heart .

I don't know how important i am to him . I don't how much i meant to him . I don't know how much he wants me . I don't how much he'll yearn for me . I don't know how much it hurts when i'm hurt . I don't know how much he meant when he say he meant what he says.. I could only see what i can see , hear what i can hear . I don't know strong is the love he had for me . I know he want me safe and happy . But if you asked me , is it as a friend who cares for one another or someone that really means something to him , i don't know..

I can break down a thousand times but i still have to get up at the end of the day. Like what people tells me "Even if you're sad or happy , you still have to live one more day .. " Which i agreed to but somehow , it isn't as easy as it seems to be .

Does distances make people move further from you or closer to you?
What if one day .... All these waiting and pinning makes me numb ? And i decided not to wait anymore?
Will you still tells me , you meant what you said?
Saying all this isn't easy for me , and tears just rolled down.
Or actually , you're just waiting for the day to come? The thought of you might leave me once and for all tear my heart into pieces. Those happy moment flashed back in my mind , I miss him .
God , tell him i miss him can you?
Let him feel the true heart , can you?
I know he's trying to find back the feeling btw the both of them . What if what happen to me happens on her? How would he react ?
what if one day i walked up to him and say " Hi dave , how have you been ?" What would it be like ?

I WISH I COULD JUST STOP BEING A NUISANCE !

I'll thank god for that i knew you

2010-04-23T06:58:00.000-07:00

What's the most painful thing you ever know? What's the most painful thing you ever do ?
What's the most painful reason you ever heard?
Well , all this doesn't seems to matter . Cling onto the painful memories, why not waste your time on the most beautiful ones?
Today was a hard day for the two of us . Maybe everyone ..
It's a terrible things to accept i know . But whose know , maybe it's all for the better?
Haven been eating and sleeping . No appetitte , can't sleep at all . LOL Serves myself rights !
He brought me out today . Lunch but , sorry i really can't eat. Then to hotel for some rest .
Just nothing , lying on your arms makes me feel safe once more . I don't know if i should say sorry . But , thanks for today . At least , i smiled again . Tears ? Tears are memories that i wanna forget so i let it go .
I'm feeling really tired . Shagged out ..

PS: You'll only feel the love when you made love with the one you loved (:

FML

2010-04-22T17:17:00.000-07:00

It's been like some times since that day he left . Depressing still .. I'm like fucking ruining my life upside down . Enjoying and suffering . I'll answer myself cause it's my life i'm playing with . But everything , everything gonna stop at this moment . I can't go on like this anymore . Whatever it is , everything have to end by today . This isn't the way to handle my body and life .. I don't what the hell is happening to me . I mean , i wish i still had my senses . I kind of hate myself to the core . No-one have to ask anything . Because i only have myself to answer to . I felt a total mess , like WTF . When i look myself in the mirror , i wish i were still the one 3 months back . But i know i'm not anymore . What done is done .

Damnit god ! I can't get to sleep . And i'm feeling kind of " I hate myself ! " . I just wanna be back to the one i am , craving for different food everyday . Sleep like nobody business . But the appetite isn't here anymore . Everything i see , i just feels like vomiting . I have to fucking get out of this shity life . This whole period is like a fucking shit thingy . What the hell am i actually doing all these while , suddenly forget the meaning of human .

After today , i realise how much it is to actually loved someone this much. It's like , althought it's over but , afterall your mind , your soul and your body still belongs to him . Its just sucks when the one holding on to you , touching you isn't the one that's in your heart . you'll just feel like crying whenever it isn't him that's beside you . Imagine when you opened your eye , the one isn't him . It's hard to imagine and it's hard to accept the facts too .
I need to really wake up and get away from all the stupid things that i've done all this moment . And yes , i regreted it ! Alright i'm being too naggy i guess . CAuse i feel it too .

PS: What 's done cannot be undone , one step wrong and it'll cost your whole life . Regrets and Guiltys are the worst thing you have to bring on for your whole freaking life .
God knows how bad i feels .. But i deserved it . No matter how hard it is , i have to bring all these things that i've done for the rest of my life .There's no-one to blamed but ourselves .
Please let me have a good sleep and make me forget every single thing , please !